This is what's known as a last days rant. Pretty much all my friends have heard at least a portion of this. It might not make complete and total sense but that's okay. I could quote scripture word for word but I forget them whenever I try and remember to tell someone so these aren't word for word or anything
Signs of the last days before the coming of Christ:
The weather will be crazy. Mountains will be valleys, flat places will be mountains, the waters will go past their borders, the earth will tear apart, storms will be violent. For example: last nights storm that went from Pensylvania through to Mississippi and everywhere In between. This years weather of jackets one day and then shorts weather today. Tornados, flash floods, lightning storms that look like a scene from Supernatural.
The education system will go to hell in a handbasket. That's clearly not a quote from the scriptures but give me the chance and I could quote stuff to back this up.
My mom is a special ed teacher. As such I get to hear every day about how screwed up our education system is and its not that hard to see that they're pushing the good teachers away. Teachers with morals-who question if whats happening is whats best for the kids- teachers with standards and compassion and a good heart ABSOLUTELY MUST GO. Just you watch. They weed out anyone who has seen how it used to be, bring in cronies that treat the kids like crap and teach crap. The kids either learn to take whats given to them- thus creating kids raised up to be ordered around and to take whatever is thrown at them- or they leave the schools, end up with bad credentials. Some will end up on the street, getting forced into harsh situations just to make ends meet and survive. Crime rate goes up, testing scores go down, the kids tolerance for bullcrap gets dangerously high.
I could talk for days about how Obama is prophecied about, how he's just the puppet and how the real danger is the one pulling the strings. But for now lets leave that bit out and move on.
Wars and rumors of wars. How many people turn on the news and see Bombings in (insert place here), martyr here, assassination attempt there. It's everywhere.
Entertainment: you people can hate me all you like for this. Anytime in history when same sex relationships were acceptable that world has been ripe for destruction. hate me but its the truth. I have gay friends, everyone does. But that doesn't mean im not aware of the severity of the consequences that this land gets whenever this happens. I was watching Pewdiepie play the last of us recap. Ellie and Ryley. Another girl.
Tumblr. I'm addicted to that place but it's really hard because Tumblr loves gays more than gays love gays.
I was listening to Onision and I disagree with a ton of things the guy says- most people do-. one thing he said on one of the videos was "just have sex. quit saving yourself and quit that saving yourself for someone special crap. just go have fun, safe, condom covered sex." Oh sorry. Please forgive me for not seeing the most intimate connection between two people as just a past time for whenever someone is bored. Sorry that I'm not willing to go find a partner whenever im horny. Thanks but no thanks.
On that note- its not new but there are sooooooooo many shows, so many books and popular things right now that make having a screwed up family seem normal. not many happy families are seen any more and they're shown on the hallmark channel where they're lacking in the realistic department.
Gay couples with their families, Single moms raising druggy kids and suicidal kids and kids that will do anything for attention. Seriously. No. And then look what happens in the real world. Exactly whats portrayed on the tv. Shocking.
Moving on
Justice system. There's no such thing as a justice system, to be frank. Good people make one mistake and end up screwed over for life. Major criminals get two years in jail. It's screwed up and justice is a lie.
I don't want to put cops in a category because I hate when teachers are done that way, but theres a lot of corrupt cops. You can look on youtube for countless stories of cops going on private property despite the right to no illegal search and seizure. There's footage of cops beating people all over youtube, ect ect blah blah screwed up stuff. This one happened two days ago. I've seen cops beat a man with a glass bottle and tazer him repeatedly but this one somehow sends chills more than even that. Because with that it was a man. With this it was a completely innocent girl jogging.
www.theblaze.com/stories/2014/02/21/i-didnr-fking-do-anything-wrong-why-did-a-woman-allegedly-on-a-jog-end-up-screaming-and-in-handcuffs/
I see these a lot, and its not to surprising. Our government is so screwed up so why shouldn't our local ones be too?
im really worked up over this today, and that video infuriated me so im nearly in tears so im gonna get off before I start rambling. later humans. own guns before we don't have that freedom. take self defense classes. don't open the door even to cops. especially to cops. don't be a defenseless sitting duck please.
later peeps
~maeko
Friday, February 21, 2014
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Some stuffs
Okay, before I begin I want everyone to go find
on Six Pack EP
It's a medley of the two songs and its the best creation since the spork.
I gots a few things to mention and then a movie review and a few mentionings of things that have struck me lately.
Soooo in church one of our teachers mostly just lets us talk about whatever but he'll occasionally ask what we've done to tell people about our church. I somehow end up being the center of attention at that time. I've got a ton of friends all over the world. Most I've never met in real life. That doesn't make them any less true friends. I never thought I was spreading the gospel, but I have that I'm Mormon on my profiles and every now and then I'll end up talking to one of my friends. The kids in the class think its the coolest thing and apparently i'm really good at talking to others. Here's a few instances when that happened.
My Oniichan and I have been friends for years now. Every now and then we'll start discussing the differences in religions. He's not of any religion. He's Christian but of no actual church. We talk about the bible and all the different ways people have translated it and I'll tell him what I believe, which is that the bible is a part of the truth, but there are other books that only we have. They have a part of it but we have the complete package.
Just this morning I got home from seminary and talked to him about what I learned. Sometimes the kids can volunteer to teach a lesson in class as extra credit for if they've missed too many days. One of the girls who's a convert taught today. We all knew that she was a very bad person before she found god, she says it all the time. Today she came out with some of the things she did. She spoke of being beaten and molested when she was 7 years old. She cried that the most precious thing she could ever give her husband she had given to strangers when she was 14. She talked about what all she had done and a lot of the kids were getting uncomfortable but it was good to see that she's not only conquered her demons but is willing to speak of them, to tell us and to help us learn from her mistakes so we don't make them ourselves. She was speaking and then at the end she broke down crying when I told her she was going to make a great mother one day. Her testimony is one of the strongest I've ever seen, because she has been down the darker paths and never found happiness.
Oniichan and I talked about wishing we had a testimony as strong as that, and how proud we are of her. He's of a different religion but we can both see how strong she is and what an amazing person she is to overcome such awful trials.
My oneechan, Kawaii-chan. She's muslim I'm Christian. We're best friends. We talk a lot about differences in religion, and also similarities. I can't recall any instances that were really mindblowing with neechan, but we talk about it a ton so its still there.
One girl that I've not known for long, a friend of a friend saw my profile said I'm Mormon. She jumped on me, declaring that we're all a big awful cult and how awful we are and the nerve I have to so openly admit it. I was kinda blown away but any Mormon out there can testify to how often we get jumped on, so I stayed calm. I asked her why she believed that and she said a Mormon had tried to shove the religion down her throat and then bullied her when she wouldn't join. She said awful people are in churches and we make her sick. I asked her if someone said every single anime was straight from satan, what would she say. She instantly got angry and said that's not a fair accusation because of all the different types of anime. I told her the same goes from people. There are good people inside the church. There are mean people in the church. BUT! There are also wicked people outside the church, and good outside the church and to label all of us due to something one did is unfair. I told her we're all individuals, we just have being Mormon as a common factor but we all differ. And its unfair to judge a church because there's mean people in it. There's mean people outside churches but its only bad if they're church members....
WIll edit, its schooltime :)
Hey world
So, I'm going through a rough spot. Rough months to be precise. I've done stupid things that are going to haunt me forever, done things with the intention in mind to hurt someone and I did hurt them and now I can never take it back. I've lost trust, I've lost support from friends...I've really screwed up. I feel like I can't do anything right, feel like I'm just going through the motions of living most of the time- without ever truly living. I hate the person I've become and I'm not really sure what to do to make any of this better. I don't know if there's any way to make things better. I'm not going to recap on what all has happened since the last time I posted, because I'd like to forget those things and on the internet is the only place where that's an option.
I can't write. Can't draw. Music- the only thing keeping me going- bores me. I'm cruel and horrible to those closest to me. I'm being completely selfish lately and I don't like it. I don't realize until after I've done it how horrible it is and then I just want to curl up and die. I've been suicidal again lately. Just these past few weeks actually. It's been so long since I've felt this, I forgot how strong the urge was to just end it all.
I'm not going to do it, I promise you that. It's just a temptation, one I'll never give into. Life is hard right now, and maybe I don't feel like theres anything to live for anymore, but that doesn't mean I'm going to take the easy way out. It's just a thought...a recurring one. Yeah. That's not how I'm going out.
Just typing things out like this works a lot to calm me. It reminds me of all the people with things soooo much worse. People who've lost their closest people, people who are in horrible painful situations. They're alive and so what right have I to think my troubles are worth ending it over? There's nothing more selfish than taking the final jump, than stepping in front of the train. I might be a deplorable human being right now who's screwed up... but who hasn't. Everyone screws up, some people fix it and some people don't. I don't know which type I am but I'm going to stick around and at least attempt to fix things. It's out my hands whether people choose to forgive me, but i'll do what I can.
I feel a lot better just letting my fingers create the words I've been holding in. I'll be alright, maybe.
I can't write. Can't draw. Music- the only thing keeping me going- bores me. I'm cruel and horrible to those closest to me. I'm being completely selfish lately and I don't like it. I don't realize until after I've done it how horrible it is and then I just want to curl up and die. I've been suicidal again lately. Just these past few weeks actually. It's been so long since I've felt this, I forgot how strong the urge was to just end it all.
I'm not going to do it, I promise you that. It's just a temptation, one I'll never give into. Life is hard right now, and maybe I don't feel like theres anything to live for anymore, but that doesn't mean I'm going to take the easy way out. It's just a thought...a recurring one. Yeah. That's not how I'm going out.
Just typing things out like this works a lot to calm me. It reminds me of all the people with things soooo much worse. People who've lost their closest people, people who are in horrible painful situations. They're alive and so what right have I to think my troubles are worth ending it over? There's nothing more selfish than taking the final jump, than stepping in front of the train. I might be a deplorable human being right now who's screwed up... but who hasn't. Everyone screws up, some people fix it and some people don't. I don't know which type I am but I'm going to stick around and at least attempt to fix things. It's out my hands whether people choose to forgive me, but i'll do what I can.
I feel a lot better just letting my fingers create the words I've been holding in. I'll be alright, maybe.
Sunday, February 16, 2014
A rant- please read the whole thing or don't read it at all
*PLEASE NOTE: I really want to make sure no one uses the "all churches are the same- they do this and that and talk like this." I'm so sick of hearing that. If you heard all teenagers, all growns up,all straights,all gays, all sports fans, all otakus, all bookworms, all nerds- are all the same would you get defensive? Yeah? I rest my case. No? I'll get out my book of insults later, you'll be defending your hurt pride by the time i'm done with you. As I was saying- No one is the same. There is no way to put anyone in a category so please don't look at what I say as a Mormon and judge all Mormons on it. I am one person. One flawed person, just like every one of you and every church member :) Moving on----
Hola humans and androids! It's been a long while since I've updated and I apologize(to the empty air I'm speaking to..) but before I recap on the past however long I've been absent, something happened today(yesterday since its 3am here) that pushed so many of my buttons. Actually three things. But mostly one.
Kevin
So every morning I get up at six, get dressed and help mom get ready for work before waiting for my ride to seminary. At seminary there's a lot of things I could talk about- and will- but for now lets talk about Kevin. Kevin is the black sheep. I mean this in he is literally the only black boy in the seminary class and that he has a troubled past, trouble present and is looking at a troubled future. He skips seminary half the time, jokes around and is rude and awful to the teacher one moment and then answering questions and volunteering to pray. he's tried talking to the other kids, I remember he asked "is there ever a time where you just don't want to trust someones word on something?" meaning is there any time that you don't trust that the scriptures are true? And everyone just stared at him like he'd grown a new head. I was the only one that was like ohmygosh yes. Just the other day I was thinking about why I follow our prophets words, why I listen to my bishop and our teachers. I remember growing up laying in bed at night asking mom what if this is the wrong church? And her getting really flustered and being like this one is true and I'd say but what if we die and it turns out we were supposed to be catholic or all this stuff?? Over time I've gained a testimony and I understand how she was so set on believing its true- because it is. but I still question it. And I have to say I think these know it alls who can quote full chapters word for word and quote conference talks- they've been studying, they've done what they were told. They haven't questioned it and come to their own conclusion. They haven't been faced with that question of "but what if its wrong?" And so I'm on Kevin's side. I want to hang out with him more.
Well today was a church dance a few hours away. We all carpooled and in our car it was the driver, her daughter, her daughters friend, me, and kevin. Kevin is cool and I think he really needs someone to let out steam to and to be there for him when the world is crashing down. But the first thing you learn when you hang out with him is that Kevin is a compulsive liar. Guess what. So am I. Just a little less than him. I exaggerate things. Say the snake was 5 foot when it was 3. He says he has all these famous rappers numbers, hangs out with Tony Hawk, has hugged one direction. And the way you know a compulsive liar is if theres no facts behind the story. If they say it then get defensive if you question it- in order to hide that they haven't thought any farther than "oh yeah ive done this and how dare you question me I thought we were friends!"
Kevin did that. Multiple times. About how you can smoke catnip (you most certainly can not. it does absolutely nothing to you, except it tastes good on salad) About Tony hawk. This kid has been in orphanages all his life, he hasn't been to see tony hawk. He's just learned that lies are much better than the reality, learned that you give people what they want- and not many people want a poor orphan black kid's story. So he comes up with new stories. That those dirt cheap bought sunglasses are from whatever expensive store. blah blah blah.
well after the activities, before the dance everyone was expected to provide their own food. some went places some ordered something delivered to the church building. Our group got pizza and went and sat in the classroom. Kevin ran off with some friends and went somewhere. Someone asked where Kevin was and suddenly he's the only topic anyone can come up with. Talking about his family, talking about all the lies he's spewed, he's the butt of EVERY SINGLE JOKE. And I'm literally sitting in a corner thinking are you serious? I ended up walking out with my pizza(I took extra slices so that none of them could get it) and went and ranted to my best friend for the next hour and a half.
Yes, Kevin lies. He sins. He makes mistakes. He's flawed. Whats your bloody point? so are you. So was every single person in that room(20 people ages 6 to 40). Every last one of them has made a mistake and you can bet your buttons they wouldn't want it to be talked about in a classroom. A bunch of the girls in that class were talking about "You remember that time you remember when you did this?" together. I only have a few memories of them, and one is a very hilarious thing someone did- ALSO KNOWN AS- A MISTAKE. So I go "remember when you did that?" and she scowls, says some stuff, and wont talk to me for the next few days. So yeah. bring up a funny little misstep with these same people and they go all silent treatment. But they've got the gall to sit around for hours talking about all these things this boy has done. Yes, his flaws happen to be funny. Yes they happen to end up making hilarious situations when he has to get out of something he said without backing down. It's funny. But so is when she slipped in milk and dropped the cake on her head. So is when she got the answer wrong in class(for once) so is when that GROWN WOMAN asked a man if he was pregnant. but they get defensive. But yet they'll sit there because he's not there and talk about him? Nope. I've tried really hard to get accepted by this group because I can testify that a church where you're the odd one out is as hard if not harder than being the only Mormon in the school. I didn't want to be alone in a room full of people. I've had that so many times. And so I laughed at jokes that weren't remotely funny, kept my own insanity bottled up and didn't say anything sarcastic. I know. Mission impossible. Yup. It hurt. But it was seeing this that made me realize I don't need to impress anyone! And even if I were to try and impress- it would not be trying to impress these people! Me and kevin are going to hang out. I'm going to be mean and rude and sarcastic and say stuff like I volunteer to bury the body and get stared at a WHOLE LOT - and I'm okay with that. I'm gonna hang out with the boys because they're funny and get my jokes and play video games and are cool. I'm gonna get Kevin to open up. I think he needs it as much as I do. He needs to realize what I realized, what I made Lily(best friend) realize. I am me and they can like me or they cant. I'm still going to go to church- I'm not there for the people. I say that a ton to people that say a church person hurt my feelings but its been a while since I could relate to it. I don't need these losers. Me and Kevin can go be awesome all on our own if they cant handle us. They're welcome to join us but I doubt it'll happen. I'll go burp the abcs all on my own.
Another rant involving some of the same people. Specifcally the one who dropped a cake on her head and gave me the silent treatment for mentioning it.
I'm not sure if being raised right is rare and i'm the weird one or if they just never learned to be polite.
I'm not a nice person. I'm mean and awful and rude. But I don't interrupt. Or if I do its because I was talking first and someone cut in and I'm like uh no i'm talking wait your turn.
But these people-- ohmygosh. I'm talking clearly or I'm hoarse because I lost my voice and haven't fully gotten it back. It doesn't matter. these smallminded humans will completely change the topic, or interrupt for another reason or just walk away. Walk away. Without a word. For the boys this is in the middle of a slowdance. For girls its when I'm trying to talk with him and be a nice person. Screw nice. It doesn't look right on me. But yes. All my friends went out to eat, so I didn't know a single soul in the building- except the gossipers that I refused to talk to. I try playing Frisbee in the gym- I am the bomb at Frisbee- no one will throw it to even after seeing my mad skills. They're trying to keep balloons from hitting the floor. Walk away when I'm trying to join in. I go over and start trying to talk to a girl that looked like she was funny and quirky and weird- I found one of my people! or so I thought- I ask her name after a few minutes, she gives it, I tell her my name and she says tahts nice and walks off. These are just a few. But like coming over to talk to me(people in that gossip room) and then right as I start opening up you change the subject to frozen. FROZEN. I hate that word! And not just that! You interrupt my conversation to tell me a story I've heard you declare every time I've seen you since you saw the movie. You interrupt to brag about doing a split. You interrupt to talk about how hard it is to have boobs. How she wishes she was flat- like me. Someone get this girl glasses(THE REALLY UGLY KIND PREFERABLY) because this little churchie is blind as the blind man in the bible. I aint gonna kill you with my enormous rack if I turn too fast- but I am in no way teeny. I usually don't care about this stuff, but it's a bit weird seeing a girl in an A cup saying that to a C cup. And seriously. Is that all you can think of to tell me? How you wish you had my boobs? Says more about who you are inside than anything your little princess perfect mask can put on display. Is there nothing more interesting in your life than splits, frozen and envying someone's boobs? Have fun with that. I'll be over here, staying home six days a week and STILL HAVING MORE OF A LIFE THAN YOU,SWEETPEA. And while I'm on an insult role- that thing you're doing while reciting the Let it go lyrics is not singing. It's more like squeaky gym shoes on a freshly waxed floor. Oh yeah. I went there :)
I just remembered I have to teach the lesson in seminary. Our teacher planned something out but I'm going to call her tomorrow and ask if I can do it on something else. Gossip. Gotta look up quotes about Gossip tomorrow. Wish me luck, nonexistent humans that read this! If you're real(or if you're a ghost) don't be afraid to comment. How mean I am, how cool I am, how you hate my church- hit me with your best shot.
Later peeps!
Hola humans and androids! It's been a long while since I've updated and I apologize(to the empty air I'm speaking to..) but before I recap on the past however long I've been absent, something happened today(yesterday since its 3am here) that pushed so many of my buttons. Actually three things. But mostly one.
Kevin
So every morning I get up at six, get dressed and help mom get ready for work before waiting for my ride to seminary. At seminary there's a lot of things I could talk about- and will- but for now lets talk about Kevin. Kevin is the black sheep. I mean this in he is literally the only black boy in the seminary class and that he has a troubled past, trouble present and is looking at a troubled future. He skips seminary half the time, jokes around and is rude and awful to the teacher one moment and then answering questions and volunteering to pray. he's tried talking to the other kids, I remember he asked "is there ever a time where you just don't want to trust someones word on something?" meaning is there any time that you don't trust that the scriptures are true? And everyone just stared at him like he'd grown a new head. I was the only one that was like ohmygosh yes. Just the other day I was thinking about why I follow our prophets words, why I listen to my bishop and our teachers. I remember growing up laying in bed at night asking mom what if this is the wrong church? And her getting really flustered and being like this one is true and I'd say but what if we die and it turns out we were supposed to be catholic or all this stuff?? Over time I've gained a testimony and I understand how she was so set on believing its true- because it is. but I still question it. And I have to say I think these know it alls who can quote full chapters word for word and quote conference talks- they've been studying, they've done what they were told. They haven't questioned it and come to their own conclusion. They haven't been faced with that question of "but what if its wrong?" And so I'm on Kevin's side. I want to hang out with him more.
Well today was a church dance a few hours away. We all carpooled and in our car it was the driver, her daughter, her daughters friend, me, and kevin. Kevin is cool and I think he really needs someone to let out steam to and to be there for him when the world is crashing down. But the first thing you learn when you hang out with him is that Kevin is a compulsive liar. Guess what. So am I. Just a little less than him. I exaggerate things. Say the snake was 5 foot when it was 3. He says he has all these famous rappers numbers, hangs out with Tony Hawk, has hugged one direction. And the way you know a compulsive liar is if theres no facts behind the story. If they say it then get defensive if you question it- in order to hide that they haven't thought any farther than "oh yeah ive done this and how dare you question me I thought we were friends!"
Kevin did that. Multiple times. About how you can smoke catnip (you most certainly can not. it does absolutely nothing to you, except it tastes good on salad) About Tony hawk. This kid has been in orphanages all his life, he hasn't been to see tony hawk. He's just learned that lies are much better than the reality, learned that you give people what they want- and not many people want a poor orphan black kid's story. So he comes up with new stories. That those dirt cheap bought sunglasses are from whatever expensive store. blah blah blah.
well after the activities, before the dance everyone was expected to provide their own food. some went places some ordered something delivered to the church building. Our group got pizza and went and sat in the classroom. Kevin ran off with some friends and went somewhere. Someone asked where Kevin was and suddenly he's the only topic anyone can come up with. Talking about his family, talking about all the lies he's spewed, he's the butt of EVERY SINGLE JOKE. And I'm literally sitting in a corner thinking are you serious? I ended up walking out with my pizza(I took extra slices so that none of them could get it) and went and ranted to my best friend for the next hour and a half.
Yes, Kevin lies. He sins. He makes mistakes. He's flawed. Whats your bloody point? so are you. So was every single person in that room(20 people ages 6 to 40). Every last one of them has made a mistake and you can bet your buttons they wouldn't want it to be talked about in a classroom. A bunch of the girls in that class were talking about "You remember that time you remember when you did this?" together. I only have a few memories of them, and one is a very hilarious thing someone did- ALSO KNOWN AS- A MISTAKE. So I go "remember when you did that?" and she scowls, says some stuff, and wont talk to me for the next few days. So yeah. bring up a funny little misstep with these same people and they go all silent treatment. But they've got the gall to sit around for hours talking about all these things this boy has done. Yes, his flaws happen to be funny. Yes they happen to end up making hilarious situations when he has to get out of something he said without backing down. It's funny. But so is when she slipped in milk and dropped the cake on her head. So is when she got the answer wrong in class(for once) so is when that GROWN WOMAN asked a man if he was pregnant. but they get defensive. But yet they'll sit there because he's not there and talk about him? Nope. I've tried really hard to get accepted by this group because I can testify that a church where you're the odd one out is as hard if not harder than being the only Mormon in the school. I didn't want to be alone in a room full of people. I've had that so many times. And so I laughed at jokes that weren't remotely funny, kept my own insanity bottled up and didn't say anything sarcastic. I know. Mission impossible. Yup. It hurt. But it was seeing this that made me realize I don't need to impress anyone! And even if I were to try and impress- it would not be trying to impress these people! Me and kevin are going to hang out. I'm going to be mean and rude and sarcastic and say stuff like I volunteer to bury the body and get stared at a WHOLE LOT - and I'm okay with that. I'm gonna hang out with the boys because they're funny and get my jokes and play video games and are cool. I'm gonna get Kevin to open up. I think he needs it as much as I do. He needs to realize what I realized, what I made Lily(best friend) realize. I am me and they can like me or they cant. I'm still going to go to church- I'm not there for the people. I say that a ton to people that say a church person hurt my feelings but its been a while since I could relate to it. I don't need these losers. Me and Kevin can go be awesome all on our own if they cant handle us. They're welcome to join us but I doubt it'll happen. I'll go burp the abcs all on my own.
Another rant involving some of the same people. Specifcally the one who dropped a cake on her head and gave me the silent treatment for mentioning it.
I'm not sure if being raised right is rare and i'm the weird one or if they just never learned to be polite.
I'm not a nice person. I'm mean and awful and rude. But I don't interrupt. Or if I do its because I was talking first and someone cut in and I'm like uh no i'm talking wait your turn.
But these people-- ohmygosh. I'm talking clearly or I'm hoarse because I lost my voice and haven't fully gotten it back. It doesn't matter. these smallminded humans will completely change the topic, or interrupt for another reason or just walk away. Walk away. Without a word. For the boys this is in the middle of a slowdance. For girls its when I'm trying to talk with him and be a nice person. Screw nice. It doesn't look right on me. But yes. All my friends went out to eat, so I didn't know a single soul in the building- except the gossipers that I refused to talk to. I try playing Frisbee in the gym- I am the bomb at Frisbee- no one will throw it to even after seeing my mad skills. They're trying to keep balloons from hitting the floor. Walk away when I'm trying to join in. I go over and start trying to talk to a girl that looked like she was funny and quirky and weird- I found one of my people! or so I thought- I ask her name after a few minutes, she gives it, I tell her my name and she says tahts nice and walks off. These are just a few. But like coming over to talk to me(people in that gossip room) and then right as I start opening up you change the subject to frozen. FROZEN. I hate that word! And not just that! You interrupt my conversation to tell me a story I've heard you declare every time I've seen you since you saw the movie. You interrupt to brag about doing a split. You interrupt to talk about how hard it is to have boobs. How she wishes she was flat- like me. Someone get this girl glasses(THE REALLY UGLY KIND PREFERABLY) because this little churchie is blind as the blind man in the bible. I aint gonna kill you with my enormous rack if I turn too fast- but I am in no way teeny. I usually don't care about this stuff, but it's a bit weird seeing a girl in an A cup saying that to a C cup. And seriously. Is that all you can think of to tell me? How you wish you had my boobs? Says more about who you are inside than anything your little princess perfect mask can put on display. Is there nothing more interesting in your life than splits, frozen and envying someone's boobs? Have fun with that. I'll be over here, staying home six days a week and STILL HAVING MORE OF A LIFE THAN YOU,SWEETPEA. And while I'm on an insult role- that thing you're doing while reciting the Let it go lyrics is not singing. It's more like squeaky gym shoes on a freshly waxed floor. Oh yeah. I went there :)
I just remembered I have to teach the lesson in seminary. Our teacher planned something out but I'm going to call her tomorrow and ask if I can do it on something else. Gossip. Gotta look up quotes about Gossip tomorrow. Wish me luck, nonexistent humans that read this! If you're real(or if you're a ghost) don't be afraid to comment. How mean I am, how cool I am, how you hate my church- hit me with your best shot.
Later peeps!
Friday, January 24, 2014
A moment of silence for the poor cops that have to put up with him.
Soooo if you're able to see this that means you've seen that Beiber has been arrested. There are two reactions happening in the world right now
The beliebers-
That's all for today! So long folks!
The beliebers-
Everyone else
Me being in the everybody else category, I'm doing a blog post dedicated to showing all the best reactions to the little twat's arrest
Dat Pewdiepie
Dat Misha Collins
DAT STITCH!
This made me smile :3
Aaaand then this
Is it bad that she looks better reversed than normal? @_@ Spooky...That's all for today! So long folks!
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
REALLY LONG! Anime reviews, movie reviews, NASAL MAGGOTS, and other stuffs
I had to post my previous blogpost quickly before my battery died and I lost everything. I was totally gonna go back and edit it so that it was about more than just how screwy my family can be. And this life happened and so I'm putting that stuff here.
Let's get started shall we?
HELLO my dear sweet little Robbin :)
Soooo I've watched a buttload of movies since I last did a review and it's high time I put up my opinions on them.
Brokeback mountain*WARNING* EXTREME SPOILERS
So uh. Am I the only one on this planet who did not know that that movie was the original gay porno? I'd heard the name here and there, I knew Jake Gyllenhal(probably spelled that wrong) was in it and I'm kinda in love with him. The name- Brokeback. Someone broke their back. I friggin thought it would be some sadistic cannibals living in the mountains and taking travelers to eat as a midnight snack! BROKEBACK! Sounds like someone frickin broke their back! BUT NO. Just broke my eyes. My poor, poor eyes.
I've made it quite clear that I don't like the idea of gay. I have gay friends, but I myself am straight as a raw spaghetti noodle and I don't like the idea of it. I love Jake but I don't love seeing him... how did the old guy describe it.... "prune the rose. whack the rose. something the rose" which is basically stick one doodad in other male's deedoo. In disgusted cowboy terms. Now that we've established that I am very much scarred for life and no longer fancy Jake as much as I once did- lets move on to the actual movie.
PLOT: Well uh its dudes who get horny because they sniffed too much sheep fuzz and one night decide to try and make babies. But that's just a summer job, its just a summer job. And after being seen by their boss "whacking the rose or whatever the fricking heck they called it" that job is no longer hiring in the future summers. In that time gays absolutely were not tolerated, and they're lucky he didn't shoot them on the spot. To keep from looking suspicious they try their hardest to turn straight- do the nasty with women and then get hitched. FOr five years they pull it off, have kids, have devoted wives. Its not a happy life but its a liveable one. And then the not cute idiot contacts Jake's character and he shows up at ugly's house. In the subtlest way possible they tell the wife to stay inside and when she peeks she finds them sucking face in her front yard- not at all trying to hide it.
Can I just say something right there? If this was the south she woulda sent the kids away for a few days, gotten out her shotgun and ended the temptation the next chance she got. Either shoot both in the crotch or shoot em both and drop the bodies. Not because every southern person hates gays- but because we don't take betrayal sitting down. the movie would've ended right then and there and I would be giving it three stars! BUt no.
Sooo they start going "fishing"- like a lot. They fight with the in laws, they neglect the kids and cuss in front of them, the wives are getting irritable. REALLY LONG STORY SHORT- Ugly dude takes Jake's character for granted. they fight and don't see each other for a while. he gets a divorce and feels "guilty coughcoughhornycough" and CALLS HIS hOUSe TO APOLOGIZE. The wife answers and tells him a tire exploded and they found him drowned in his blood. He knows better and as a result I got to see JAKE GET CROWBARRED TO DEATH. It's at this point I start staring at the clock, wondering why I'm even watching this if the hot guy is gone. It's certainly not the plot that has everyone knowing about this movie. THe movie ends in a way I won't say and I finally get a break from that. Nothin against gays but I did not like that movie.
Acting: 7 of 9. The ugly guy couldn't act in my opinion, and all he said was cussing or lying to his wife and it sounded bad. Jake did good, I actually think they did pretty good with the acting, the supporting charcters were pretty well done.
Plot: oh theres a plot? what is it? oh poor gays, how hard it must be having to get married to women and settle for less and treat them badly and then go hook up with mister shirtless whenever I get bored of her? Sorry, I wasn't moved. Gays have had it rough but frankly so have a lot of other parts of the human race and I have seen enough truly tragic things that this didn't hit me as sad- except how mean he was to the woman who truly loved him. I don't like gay movies because they make it seem like girls are nothing but tools to make them look good and then drop them when its convenient. I have lived that life, I'm living that life every day and I don't like seeing it on dvd.
Effects- well its an old movie. No CG or anything computerized, really. The scenery was fantastic. I kinda focused on the mountains or the waterfalls when a nude dude would come in and so I got to see a lot of really pretty scenery. What little gore they had-which is bound to happen sooner or later out west back then- was pretty intense. A gutted, gorey sheep, some blood when Jake is getting killed. I was impressed by how graphic those scenes were for an old movie like that. Violence wasn't approved back then, just like gays weren't.
OVERALL- it made me think about some things. Not the desired things that they intended the audience to ponder over, but things. I won't ever watch it again but I don't regret it as much as I feel I should've.
American Hustle
I was in the movie theatre- just finished the hobbit and dad and I were seeing if any other movies we were interested in were playing that we could slip into. This one would be playing in thirty minutes and I was so bummed I didn't see it in theatres DX HOWEVER! I did see it two days later thanks to a wonderful website known as Viooz! (google the movie title and viooz and you'll understand)
I gotta say, it was a messed up, twisted, confusing movie- and its in my top ten of alltime.
EVERY SINGLE ACTOR did so well in their role! I'm gonna dote on Jennifer for a second because I love her- she was fantastic. She played Rosalyn SO well that I thought she was real. It felt real. I wasn't analyzing the graphics looking for errors, I was focusing on the acting and she pulled me in sooo well as Rosalyn it was amazing. The way I identify if someone is TRULY good is if they become the character. In les mis- Eddie Redmayne is Marius- hands down. Chick who plays fantine IS FANTINE. She became the role so much that I don't remember her actual name. The alternative is Russel Crowe played Javert and it was Russel Crowe playing Javert. Nothing more. He didn't become the character. Jennifer became Rosalyn! Expressed her soooo well I was blown away and I loved it!
Every character was expressed so flawlessly, so wonderfully in synch when together and just as mindblowing when alone- I loved it. I hated the cussing though, but what do you expect from forgers. And that's something else! The story of Irwin, the story of Rosalyn and Sydney were all so good that you knew the characters. They became real, they became people who could be your next door neighbors. I gotta admit I wish there was more backstory on Richie but I also think that would take away from the flow to explain any more about him.
Plot: Incredibly Intricate. It took me about forty five minutes after I watched it to finish figuring out how all the twists and surprises ended up coming together. They explained it really well, but at the same time you realize more about it when you're thinking about it later. The other thing is how well they kept to the time setting. That was very key and I can't really explain.
Casting: Sublime. I really couldn't think of anything I would change about the cast. Everything meshed together very well.
Acting: I've made it clear what I think of that. It's actors acting like they're acting one thing when they're acting another. And they achieved it.
Overall- 9 of 10
I can't remember if I did a review on FROZEN yet so I'll save that one until I get the energy to scroll back and see if I already mentioned it. If I never get around to it let me just say- I think I'm the only person in this milky way that didn't like that movie. Me and my little niece. We stand alone against the world on this one.
We're the millers
If you're searching for a movie because you're in the mood for utterly hilarious dirty humor- you've come to the right place. I saw who was being cast in this, saw how chaotic it would be and have been wanting to see it for ages. And I'm really glad I did. I wasn't disappointed by the cast, by the crude humor, by the plot twists that make what could be fifteen minute movie into a full film. its not a movie you'll watch because you like what they're doing. You won't agree with their actions unless you are a drug smuggler yourself(I won't judge) but the slapstick humor was poured on thick- but then stopped at the right moments.
Plot: once again- kudos to the person coming up with such plot twists- and managing to tie them all up by the end. Well done, senor.
Cast: Everyone fit their role, nothing felt out of place
Effects- effects were and weren't a big part of this movie. there was no big flaming batman signal on a building that they had to CG- but there were a bunch of greenscreens, some explosives. I think they did well for the budget and used it in the right spots. I'll say it again- nothing felt forced.
I know I watched more than that since my last review but actually I think a lot of it was anime that I was investigating, not too many movies.
Dinner calls my name! I shall return after dishes are done and I watch The Place Beyond The Pines, Adult World, and some sad movie that's name slips my mind. I'm gonna start writing down what I plan to blog about becaue I can't remember them now... all I remember is feeling guilty that I've neglected to post for so long.
OH! SO FOR A WHILE KIDS HAVE DECIDED TO CRUSH CANDIES AND SNIFF THEM BUT LATELY ITS GOTTEN REALLY POPULAR WITH SMARTIES. IF YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT SNORTING SMARTIES CONSIDER THIS FIRST! ALONG WITH SHUTTING OFF YOUR LUNGS AND POSSIBLE DEATH THIS NEW FAD IS KNOWN TO GIVE YOU NASAL MAGGOTS! IF YOU'RE LIKE ME AND DON'T WANT THINGS CRAWLING AROUND IN YOUR SNIFFER THEN FIGURE OUT A DIFFERENT WAY TO BECOME SMART! PUT DOWN THE MAKESHIFT DRUGS, PUT DOWN THE REAL DRUGS. PICK UP A BOOK AND GET ADDICTED TO AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE OF YOUR CHOICE INSTEAD!
comment if you want, or don't if you want to be mean. id like you to but after my other posts im just counting my blessings with views so if you don't wanna comment, don't force yourself. please enjoy this pile of images and I think a few gifs.
Let's get started shall we?
HELLO my dear sweet little Robbin :)
Soooo I've watched a buttload of movies since I last did a review and it's high time I put up my opinions on them.
Brokeback mountain*WARNING* EXTREME SPOILERS
So uh. Am I the only one on this planet who did not know that that movie was the original gay porno? I'd heard the name here and there, I knew Jake Gyllenhal(probably spelled that wrong) was in it and I'm kinda in love with him. The name- Brokeback. Someone broke their back. I friggin thought it would be some sadistic cannibals living in the mountains and taking travelers to eat as a midnight snack! BROKEBACK! Sounds like someone frickin broke their back! BUT NO. Just broke my eyes. My poor, poor eyes.
I've made it quite clear that I don't like the idea of gay. I have gay friends, but I myself am straight as a raw spaghetti noodle and I don't like the idea of it. I love Jake but I don't love seeing him... how did the old guy describe it.... "prune the rose. whack the rose. something the rose" which is basically stick one doodad in other male's deedoo. In disgusted cowboy terms. Now that we've established that I am very much scarred for life and no longer fancy Jake as much as I once did- lets move on to the actual movie.
PLOT: Well uh its dudes who get horny because they sniffed too much sheep fuzz and one night decide to try and make babies. But that's just a summer job, its just a summer job. And after being seen by their boss "whacking the rose or whatever the fricking heck they called it" that job is no longer hiring in the future summers. In that time gays absolutely were not tolerated, and they're lucky he didn't shoot them on the spot. To keep from looking suspicious they try their hardest to turn straight- do the nasty with women and then get hitched. FOr five years they pull it off, have kids, have devoted wives. Its not a happy life but its a liveable one. And then the not cute idiot contacts Jake's character and he shows up at ugly's house. In the subtlest way possible they tell the wife to stay inside and when she peeks she finds them sucking face in her front yard- not at all trying to hide it.
Can I just say something right there? If this was the south she woulda sent the kids away for a few days, gotten out her shotgun and ended the temptation the next chance she got. Either shoot both in the crotch or shoot em both and drop the bodies. Not because every southern person hates gays- but because we don't take betrayal sitting down. the movie would've ended right then and there and I would be giving it three stars! BUt no.
Sooo they start going "fishing"- like a lot. They fight with the in laws, they neglect the kids and cuss in front of them, the wives are getting irritable. REALLY LONG STORY SHORT- Ugly dude takes Jake's character for granted. they fight and don't see each other for a while. he gets a divorce and feels "guilty coughcoughhornycough" and CALLS HIS hOUSe TO APOLOGIZE. The wife answers and tells him a tire exploded and they found him drowned in his blood. He knows better and as a result I got to see JAKE GET CROWBARRED TO DEATH. It's at this point I start staring at the clock, wondering why I'm even watching this if the hot guy is gone. It's certainly not the plot that has everyone knowing about this movie. THe movie ends in a way I won't say and I finally get a break from that. Nothin against gays but I did not like that movie.
Acting: 7 of 9. The ugly guy couldn't act in my opinion, and all he said was cussing or lying to his wife and it sounded bad. Jake did good, I actually think they did pretty good with the acting, the supporting charcters were pretty well done.
Plot: oh theres a plot? what is it? oh poor gays, how hard it must be having to get married to women and settle for less and treat them badly and then go hook up with mister shirtless whenever I get bored of her? Sorry, I wasn't moved. Gays have had it rough but frankly so have a lot of other parts of the human race and I have seen enough truly tragic things that this didn't hit me as sad- except how mean he was to the woman who truly loved him. I don't like gay movies because they make it seem like girls are nothing but tools to make them look good and then drop them when its convenient. I have lived that life, I'm living that life every day and I don't like seeing it on dvd.
Effects- well its an old movie. No CG or anything computerized, really. The scenery was fantastic. I kinda focused on the mountains or the waterfalls when a nude dude would come in and so I got to see a lot of really pretty scenery. What little gore they had-which is bound to happen sooner or later out west back then- was pretty intense. A gutted, gorey sheep, some blood when Jake is getting killed. I was impressed by how graphic those scenes were for an old movie like that. Violence wasn't approved back then, just like gays weren't.
OVERALL- it made me think about some things. Not the desired things that they intended the audience to ponder over, but things. I won't ever watch it again but I don't regret it as much as I feel I should've.
American Hustle
I was in the movie theatre- just finished the hobbit and dad and I were seeing if any other movies we were interested in were playing that we could slip into. This one would be playing in thirty minutes and I was so bummed I didn't see it in theatres DX HOWEVER! I did see it two days later thanks to a wonderful website known as Viooz! (google the movie title and viooz and you'll understand)
I gotta say, it was a messed up, twisted, confusing movie- and its in my top ten of alltime.
EVERY SINGLE ACTOR did so well in their role! I'm gonna dote on Jennifer for a second because I love her- she was fantastic. She played Rosalyn SO well that I thought she was real. It felt real. I wasn't analyzing the graphics looking for errors, I was focusing on the acting and she pulled me in sooo well as Rosalyn it was amazing. The way I identify if someone is TRULY good is if they become the character. In les mis- Eddie Redmayne is Marius- hands down. Chick who plays fantine IS FANTINE. She became the role so much that I don't remember her actual name. The alternative is Russel Crowe played Javert and it was Russel Crowe playing Javert. Nothing more. He didn't become the character. Jennifer became Rosalyn! Expressed her soooo well I was blown away and I loved it!
Every character was expressed so flawlessly, so wonderfully in synch when together and just as mindblowing when alone- I loved it. I hated the cussing though, but what do you expect from forgers. And that's something else! The story of Irwin, the story of Rosalyn and Sydney were all so good that you knew the characters. They became real, they became people who could be your next door neighbors. I gotta admit I wish there was more backstory on Richie but I also think that would take away from the flow to explain any more about him.
Plot: Incredibly Intricate. It took me about forty five minutes after I watched it to finish figuring out how all the twists and surprises ended up coming together. They explained it really well, but at the same time you realize more about it when you're thinking about it later. The other thing is how well they kept to the time setting. That was very key and I can't really explain.
Casting: Sublime. I really couldn't think of anything I would change about the cast. Everything meshed together very well.
Acting: I've made it clear what I think of that. It's actors acting like they're acting one thing when they're acting another. And they achieved it.
Overall- 9 of 10
I can't remember if I did a review on FROZEN yet so I'll save that one until I get the energy to scroll back and see if I already mentioned it. If I never get around to it let me just say- I think I'm the only person in this milky way that didn't like that movie. Me and my little niece. We stand alone against the world on this one.
We're the millers
If you're searching for a movie because you're in the mood for utterly hilarious dirty humor- you've come to the right place. I saw who was being cast in this, saw how chaotic it would be and have been wanting to see it for ages. And I'm really glad I did. I wasn't disappointed by the cast, by the crude humor, by the plot twists that make what could be fifteen minute movie into a full film. its not a movie you'll watch because you like what they're doing. You won't agree with their actions unless you are a drug smuggler yourself(I won't judge) but the slapstick humor was poured on thick- but then stopped at the right moments.
Plot: once again- kudos to the person coming up with such plot twists- and managing to tie them all up by the end. Well done, senor.
Cast: Everyone fit their role, nothing felt out of place
Effects- effects were and weren't a big part of this movie. there was no big flaming batman signal on a building that they had to CG- but there were a bunch of greenscreens, some explosives. I think they did well for the budget and used it in the right spots. I'll say it again- nothing felt forced.
I know I watched more than that since my last review but actually I think a lot of it was anime that I was investigating, not too many movies.
Dinner calls my name! I shall return after dishes are done and I watch The Place Beyond The Pines, Adult World, and some sad movie that's name slips my mind. I'm gonna start writing down what I plan to blog about becaue I can't remember them now... all I remember is feeling guilty that I've neglected to post for so long.
OH! SO FOR A WHILE KIDS HAVE DECIDED TO CRUSH CANDIES AND SNIFF THEM BUT LATELY ITS GOTTEN REALLY POPULAR WITH SMARTIES. IF YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT SNORTING SMARTIES CONSIDER THIS FIRST! ALONG WITH SHUTTING OFF YOUR LUNGS AND POSSIBLE DEATH THIS NEW FAD IS KNOWN TO GIVE YOU NASAL MAGGOTS! IF YOU'RE LIKE ME AND DON'T WANT THINGS CRAWLING AROUND IN YOUR SNIFFER THEN FIGURE OUT A DIFFERENT WAY TO BECOME SMART! PUT DOWN THE MAKESHIFT DRUGS, PUT DOWN THE REAL DRUGS. PICK UP A BOOK AND GET ADDICTED TO AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE OF YOUR CHOICE INSTEAD!
comment if you want, or don't if you want to be mean. id like you to but after my other posts im just counting my blessings with views so if you don't wanna comment, don't force yourself. please enjoy this pile of images and I think a few gifs.
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